grow up.

growing up is difficult. when you're young, you only think about friends, recess, and what you're having for dinner.  now, as a 24 year old, i think often about work, bills, and what i want to do with the rest of my life.  really daunting thoughts really.

my house was recently broken into.  over fourth of july weekend, my 2 roommates and i were all out of the house for one reason or another.  when the first of my roommates returned, he found a window open, a television missing, and a laptop gone.  the laptop. was mine.  at first i was shocked and pissed because who ever wants there house to be broken into and their shit stolen.  but at the same time, i couldnt help but be a little glad.  my good ol' toshiba has survived the past 4 years.  it has been a great 4 years but it was time for it to go.

ANYWHOOOO... so they took my computer and now i must deal with insurance stuff.  i feel like it's not meant to be complicated, the whole process of dealing with insurance claims, but for some reason or another, it has turned to be quite frustrating.  i have never dealt with insurance before.  the only thing that i know about it is that i send a check to state farm every april to take care of my car and my house that i rent.  i don't make payments, i just send one check because i don't want to deal with the monthly reminder that i am constantly losing money.  because i don't really know how everything works, what i'm supposed to send to them, what i'm supposed to tell them, etc etc... i feel like i'm walking a little in the dark and the state farm people are not really helping provide a light.  they've told me what to fill out and what to send them, but i don't really feel like they're giving me information on how to get the most amount of money back.  on the other hand, my roommate diddy, whose television and wii were stolen, has had real helpful people... i think it's partly due to the fact that he knows a little bit more about this stuff than i do... which makes me think that i really need to start paying attention to this kind of stuff. problem is... i really have no interest.

i constantly have this conversation with my father.  i have no interest in anything that has to do with money.  i have no interested in learning how to invest... WAIT. scratch that.  i do have an interest in learning how to invest, but i have no interest in the process of learning how to invest.  i do feel like it's necessary for me to learn how to deal with money, and to learn how to work with my 401k (thanks to my mother.... 501k has now changed to the correct 401k)... but i just have no interest in learning about it.  i don't have the patience and the desire to read a whole bunch of books.  the problem is that i like results.  i like to see my money grow.  the fact that money grows rather slowly in banks and such makes it hard for me to have an interest when i can't see an outcome.

wow have i gone on a tangent.



good night.